Although not published on anywhere but here in my blog, mainly in my beauty blog, I would consider myself a writer as it is my main hobby outside reading.
Being published, or not, will not change whether you are a writer, or not.
For as long as I can remember I have wrote fiction. Fairytale for adults if most of my stories are to be studied and dissected.
Even in my young years I can remember wanting to write to find a voice and as I have got older it has only got worse.
Age has brought out darker stories with more depth and backstory and I love that I have lost the simplicity of the characters of my youth. Life isn't simple, I realise now with the passing of years so my characters won't be either.
Characters have always lived in my head and now my head is straight, the characters are beginning to come out the woodwork again.
Nowadays as I progress within my main life role as mother to my amazing son, there are days that they live beside me and are pleasant affable company but there are days that I can't switch off, like during NANOWRIMO.
Those days are a nightmare and sometimes they want out and want my books to go their way. I find release it parenting and then scuttle to write when I have time instead of reading or watching the television.
During NANOWRIMO I wrote a full novel and I found it amazing to just write and let the characters take me where they wanted to go. I had planned out the end and the family tree but half way through that was scrapped as my book dove off a cliff that I had never seen coming.
To this day, months later, it irritates me immensely. I had these books stitched up before I even started and thought I knew how each book would begin, finish and end. I planned a two book series but instead there will be at least four books in this series and I will live this series for longer.
In November, one book in a month wiped me out and only now I am getting back to writing with any sort of passion. I am currently writing the second book in my series and the characters once again are being awkward. The heroine is spoiled and indulged and insists on her own way and one of the other mains won't talk to me. He is probably the most stubborn person I have ever met and I just wish sometimes he would open up.
Heavens, I feel so crazy some days but after reading books about other authors and especially after reading the jr ward black dagger brotherhood insider guide I realise I am not completely mad or as unique as I thought.
The honest truth is that I need to write in order to be truly happy. Whether it is on here as a blog post or writing a book no one may well see I need and crave it. For a long time I thought I was mad.
Am I? No, not really. Just a writer that needs to write to feel fully fulfilled.
Sorry for the rant but I had to write my thoughts to get things clear in my noggin.
Anyway, back to writing my book,
x-J-x
